We look for love, no time for tears

I see the crystal raindrops fall; and the beauty of it all
Is when the sun comes shining through
To make those rainbows in my mind, when I think of you sometime
And I want to spend some time with you

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us.
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us; you and I

We look for love no time for tears, wasted water’s all that is
And it don’t make no flowers grow
Good things might come to those who wait, not for those who wait too late
We gotta go for all we know.

The funeral service today was lovely, the above Bill Withers song was played and then my friend managed to navigate his way through a beautiful Eulogy. It was somehow easier to truly understand the depth of feelings he had for his partner when I heard that grief and love all compressed into a 5 minute speech.

I’m not sure how much I can say on the subject really as it’s hard to express my feelings about nor mentally process the number of changes going on at the moment… couples splitting up, medical nightmares, friends or their relatives dying. Somehow the usual work stresses seem to have paled into insignificance. For a workaholic like me that’s quite weird.

I spent the time before the service catching up with friends I hadn’t seen in a while, and it was nice to talk about “normal” things with them. You know… not getting time to do the gardening, washing machines going kaput, grumbling about not having a dishwasher… ah those middle class problems, how comforting they are once you get into your thirties and beyond. Shamefully we did shake our heads about the middle aged-ness of it all and then moved on to talk about slightly more raucous times we’ve shared! 🙂

So far I’ve been lucky in that I haven’t felt queasy or anything, just a bit light headed like I have low blood sugar. I’ve been eating normally, apart from not eating things that might give me food poisoning – seafood that someone else cooked, pâté, raw egg, unpasteurised cheese, etc.

Actually it hasn’t done me any harm to eat vegetables rather than meat from the buffet at the wake yesterday, especially as I got dragged to McDonalds to eat junk food later that evening before watching the extremely entertaining Stewart Lee. (You know, that slightly chubby, grumpy bloke that has a face like an eskimo!!) I’m surprised he’s doing such local venues but pretty pleased to be able to get to see him a 10 minute drive from my house! It’s the first time I’ve really seen any of his material but I really enjoyed the way he involved the audience in the theory of comedy as well as just being funny. A really good way to finish such a tiring day.

Lyrics by Bill Withers